Cleansing the past.

I spent my day cleaning up a few things, I guess you could say that it was more along the lines of cleaning out a few skeleton closets.  It wasn't something that I had planned to do, in fact my day was already planned when the sudden urge to just do it came around.  Also, the fact that I almost dropped a box of memories on the garage floor definitely helped the matter.

The first thing that I came across was a note with some information on it, and it had everything to do with my AZ Drummer, from over 9 years ago.  Apparently we were heading to Tucson to watch his daughter participate in a swim meet.  As our relationship was fairly new, my mother insisted on having the license plate number off his truck, his cell number and home address.  Lol...

Seeing that note just reminded me of our conversations prior to my return to AZ.  It reminded me of how anxious and excited I was to be able to see him again, through our conversations I realized that we both thought about each other on occasion over the years and it's unfortunate that despite the obvious care we still had for each other, we never had the chance to see what it would lead to.

As it has now been almost 2 years since we last spoke, I hope that he has found what makes him happy.

I also came across a box that was full of Chicago Bears stuff... so to say the least, today has definitely been a day of memories, both good and bad, healing and letting go.

Surface Bound

I guess I would have to say that my absence has been more along the lines of working things out for myself.  Learning how to move forward in my life without feeling guilty for wanting to do so and coming full circle.

Work is going great, I have an awesome career and I am coming up on my 1 year anniversary, already!  The time sure flies by.

Got myself a nice little place that I am extremely comfortable with and impatiently waiting for the 22nd of the month to arrive which means my youngest daughter will be staying with me for a couple of weeks during her vacation from school.

I am slowly but surely finding that I can actually navigate these roads here in both Phoenix and Scottsdale.  The first few months I was lost a lot!  Thank goodness for GPS!  In fact just this afternoon I was in Surprise, a place that I ended up in when I should have been in Scottsdale a few months back... I was there today as part of a support system for a friend.  She had a few issues come up and needed a friend with her when the results were read.  Nice hospital and I thought I saw a certain drummer person there, but can't be sure, it's been a while and well, it was hot and I could truly only focus on finding a cool place to plop my ass down!  As for my friend, she is fine, all the results came back in her favor... yeah!

My oldest daughter will begin her 23 state tour with the National Drum Corps in the next couple of weeks, excited and yet nervous as all hell for that one.  She's still my baby girl!

Well, can't think of anything else to catch you up to speed with, so until next time, stay cool, stay hydrated and for goodness sake, get out and live your lives!

In a mood...

For whatever reason was going through my head at the time, perhaps out of sheer boredom, I threw a bit of information at the direction of research and OMG, the information I pulled up was quite surprising. 

First off, tomorrow is my 2nd date with Shawn.  As I have a meeting this afternoon in Phoenix, we decided that instead of me driving 2 hours there, back and then doing it again tomorrow, I am going to be staying with him tonight.

So yesterday... as I am entering the information into Google Maps as to the location of my meeting from home, the thought of just how far my AZ Drummer lives from Shawn entered my mind.  Sooooooo, it is less than a mile!  Yeah, I was like, holy hell!

So now it's later in the evening and I am posting on a journal that I am part of, then I notice how you can search/view other members journals, so for the hell of it, I use keywords for Shawn and then for my AZ Drummer.  Nothing comes up with Shawn, but for the AZ Drummer, I was actually brought to his wife's journal!  At this point I am like 'Holy Shit!'....

Although there was a lot of entries, out of respect, I only read one, basically just checking to see if this is in fact one and the same... so my answer would have to be, yes, without a doubt, this was his wife's journal!

So as of now, my research is back in it's box, only to be used for a true good reason.

Coincidence? Perhaps....

Thought I would provide a smidgen of an update regarding my AZ Drummer.....

On the day of the 'supposed' robbery, I received a few text messages from an unknown number pretty much within the hour that he said the incident occurred... (incident?  geez, now I sound like a cop) anyway.... I received another text message from the same number yesterday, only this time the person was asking if I knew of someone interested in buying an amp and some speakers....

First of all, this person has no idea who I am and vice-versa.  It could all be just totally coincidental in relation to when the text messages started and the context in which they are, but I just don't know. 

So when I received the message yesterday, despite my desire to avoid any further contact with the AZ Drummer, I thought perhaps this might be the person trying to unload stolen items from him, hell, think about it, as he was part of a band, I would assume that he would have amps, speakers, etc... so the reasoning was not that off kilter!

So I did send him a message yesterday informing him of the text that I had received... his response, 'Everything is OK.  Please do not contact me anymore'... what an ass!  Which leads me to believe that the 'robbery' never actually occurred and in fact he was spending the holiday weekend with his family.

So despite my good intentions to try to help him out, unfortunately some people are just incapable of a simple, Thank You.

Contacting him is something that I can easily avoid and with the utmost respect, Good Riddance!

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Upset and Relieved...

I finally heard back from my AZ Drummer.  I am highly grateful that he is okay, slightly more than upset about what happened to him, but thankful that he wasn't hurt.

I was in the final waiting mode, if I didn't hear from him by 7:30 tonight, I was preparing to call out the calvary.

On one hand I am glad it wasn't me checking on him personally, there is no way on earth I could even think to leave his side after what he told me happened.  Hell, I would have been his shadow at work too....